我喜欢你我稀望有一天你知道。

        我每一天都有烦脑， 爱情对我来说是已没有意思了。 为何要我面对这见事情呢？ 我以经没有力量来面对这一切问题。 我西望我能够望掉全部一干二静的。 但是，这一以经变成我最深的应向。

word of god for the day

12.01a.m.

8th march 2011

All Things Are Possible

Read Deuteronomy 9:1 through 11:25; Mark 9:2—24

Many persons refuse to believe in miracles. Indeed, by definition, to perform a miracle is to do something that cannot be done by ordinary means. Even Christians may struggle to believe that the power of God can accomplish the impossible.

A father had a son who was possessed by an evil spirit. The religious leaders were powerless to help, and Jesus’ disciples failed to bring deliverance. Desperately the man appealed directly to Jesus, “Help us, if you can!”

Everything is possible for him who believes (Mark 9:23).

Jesus’ response clearly affirmed that the man’s son could be delivered. The father correctly evaluated the condition of his own faith; it was incomplete. The son was delivered because Jesus helped the father to believe.

Like the father, most Christians live with a mixture of faith and doubt. They want to believe for a miracle, but fear the disappointment of unanswered prayer. The Spirit gives Christians the ability to believe God can do miracles.

Challenge for Today: Direct your faith to God who can and will do what is impossible.

Quicklook: Mark 9:14–24

Old injury still here

11.28PM

7th March 2011

    

            My sprained toe still swollen. just like my sprained heart. It's always there. I just can't get enough to stand up again and do the trial and error. It's too hard to find a soul mate but it is so easy to find a friend that is just called friend on the name it. How far is the friend is called friend. Is it just a little 'Hai', or 'Ah, I know him he is my friend."? or, 'We are classmate back then'. It was not easy to understand a human behaviour totally, even though they claimed they know you, for example your parents but then, You still the only person know what you are. Because you are developing and discovering yourself in this life. Last word, don't judge a girl by it's cover, don't say it if you don't mean it, cause people might get hurt with those fake statement that you make about them. You have the right to say it, but mind your own business because you might want people to remember you on your kindness not your rudeness. Please behave!

By      JYOO

The dull story: me me me me me me

  7th March 2011
  11.07 PM

           My day started with bumpy, I woke up at 7.12 A.M. My head hanging with those question that could never be answer and only time can tell what would happen to me in future. I can only do what I think is logical. Thinking back, turning my head looking on the foot print that I left behind, it seems, I had walk so far to get myself to this place, but when I get here, I seem lost and don't know what's next, and everything I do seems to be copy and pasting others path because of I want to be seen by those people that I had in my life. How ever, everything won't happen like I was expected no matter how hard I tried. I'm just another object that don't have any value in those pairs of eyes. Where do I go from here, I'm not stepping on the real earth anymore, each and every dream that I had dream of seems to be fantasy forever. I wish that someday I could be get my self into that fantasy.
         I need to stand up straight and find my own motivation for myself. In this world, no one is looking no one. Except you had something special in you. Like those famous actor or actress with good looking and talent in acting. Those singers with sweet voice which may mesmerizes you with the captivating lyrics and touch your soul deeply. Finally, at this point, I started to turn my self into God, trying hard to pray but it seems that nothing can help me. Even Him can't. I don't understand this life. Too complicated for a little soul. Too hard and rough for a fragile little heart. Too fast and difficult for a little timid human.
        What's next after all of this big obstacles had been hurdles over? This one is the big hurdles for me, because people grows up, the more things being discovered, exposed to love life which I could never imagine could hurt this soul so much. I tried to heal this little soul but it seems that effortless was needed because it will never healed and never gonna be the same anymore. Because this cut is the deepest cut I had and I keep this to myself. I don't know whether I grew me up or making me childish? Psychologically, I could be gone crazy by now. Being strong is the only thing that I could do. I'm faking it. I face it as if all of this is nothing to me. Somehow. When I was thirsty with the attention, sharing, and caring, anything that a normal human needs, I could burst into tears anytime it could be. What I need is to crack open this wall that I had build for the longest time ago since I was child. My childhood was rough and hard. I makes me feel I'm the worst out of all. Want all of this go away quickly as possible.
        Hoping is the only thing that I could do. I just need to close my eyes and think that this just only dream, and be less emotionally involve and everything will be fine.

By JYOO

When the moon is talking back

        

My feeling about my life.

Just shoot me darling.

            Today I had midterm of tuber crop, I hope I can do the midterm. I'm confused with myself right now. Everything seems to be not right. I need space for myself. I believe I just need myself to be love by someone and settling down. I don't have the soul for all these crap, I don't even have any vision on what am I going to do with my life. I'm loss, I need map and GPS to show me where am I and where should I be. I need some guidance to show me the way.

By JYOO

Inspiring quotes

"People with many interest live,

not only live longest but happiest" 

 By George Matthew Allen

"So often times it happens

that we live our lives in chains

and we never even know we have the key"

By Eagles

"Do not anticipate trouble or worry, 

about what may never happen, keep in the sunlight"

By Benjamin Franklin

"Do no believe boys easily, they are playful."

By JYOO

10 things I'm thinking now

    Monday, 

    3.51 p.m.,

    28 Feb 2011.

Biggest gift I get in my life from two men of my life.

1. Kiss never tell the truth about the feelings.
2. Boys like girls make me sick.
3. I want my boyfriend know how to play guitar, cook, sing and athletic.
4. I want my boyfriend to be understanding, loving, caring, honest, and sincere.
5. I hope I will married him or may be him.
6. I want a happy marriage.
7. I want to be excellence in sport.
8. I want to loss weight.
9. I want to settle all the assignment soon.
10. I want to buy a Proton Saga.

By JYOO