soldier of Samur

          Eversince I work at samur. this is the cloth that had been my so called soldier cloth that i had to put on   myself. It is a very challenging department that I had been assigned to. there is may up and down of my life with the life of working at this project. It could be a blessing in disguised I guess. Even though there is may things that I still not manage to figure out the reason of quiting.

SOGIP: SABAH OIL AND GAS INDUSTRIAL PARK

I wonder after samur project of my journey of 7 months now what would be the next thing in my life. could it be sogip project or could it be i'm getting another new permanent job that could encourage my future to be brighter and bigger. I don't know. Just I wish I could do my best in my life here.

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wet blanket

after a while of doing everything to run away from the past. it's been a while i did not feel this way. I really need my space and my time to have my way out calmly breathing in the air. I really need air cool to breath and away from all this uncontrol situation.

DAMMIT,, I MISS I CHANCESS...

DANG IT, i had miss my chances of working in with government, i miss the test... 

Recently Shortsighted..

Sunset at Beringgis Beach resort

Writing something

Spending quality time together 

One of the biggest turning point in my life had happen so fast. I can't believe what I discover. When I thought I was going to give up and surrender, he came into my life and make me feel alive again, He is the magic of my life and I can't stop saying Thank You in my heart. 

Somehow, something that I can't tell about is the pressure I received from workplace is increasing everyday and now I got sick. My performance at work was degrading and I can't help it with my weak body stat. I really hope that I get well soon and extricate all the pressure that was affecting me. I can't help it when I only can keep my mouth shut and be quite. 

I really want to unlock myself again which has lock to it self. I really want to play sport again. I feel so weak and I need strength to work like i did before. I never sick like this before. This is my very first time to feel the sickness. Maybe because of lack of vitamins in my body. All I can do is to recuperate and doing my best to cure myself from this sickness and be alive again.

Famous Question to a vegetarian (me)

hey noodle, ready to have a roller coaster ride in my tummy?

Let me describe a bit about being a vegetarian.. first of all, it is so easy to think about it.. second of all, it is so easy to forget about being a vegetarian when you first start off being one and realize that u had eaten animal. and finally.. it is so hard to eat animal when you had not taken it for years and years.. i did try and failed about ten times if im not mistaken finally i succeed. and i am not even regret about it. because thats prove i cn control my life the way i want. 

Question that i often get from normal people who may not understood me;

1) do you eat seafood... well, seafood is animal and animal not an option for a vegetarian so shake off that thoughts of yours that i will eat seafood..

2) next question people ask me do u believe in buddha? do you drink milk do you eat egg? hmm.. hell no, when i said animal it means animal... nothing to do with religion and believes.. and non moving things. i just don't eat animal.. Clear punch line isn't it.. you don't need to understood, u just need to be acknowledge about it and please respect that.. 

3) one of the a famous question that i've heard of is how did you eat at the restoraunt? fyi, i hate eating out and when i do, i would just preferred to have a plain noodle and hot drink with soups.. it would be lucky for me if im able to gone through vegetarian restoraunt and enjoy my dish fully. :) i will enjoy my very own homemade meal only..