All year round.

Today is 29th of december 2011, I am glad that I did not suicide after all the fuss that happen to me. It was a difficult year for me. I'm struggling a lot to get over it and I have done lots of things just to move on from this matter. I believe that a lots of girl out there have been through what I felt and some of them will go through this as I did. Thanks to everyone that had been supporting me along the way when I'm weak.

Maximization of life

       

Totaly broken: fix it!

                             Today is the maximization of my ability of physical running here and there, doing stuff, making myself so buzy regarding my life. Just to make sure everything was done just in time, thanks to god up until now I just do what am able to do. Hopefully god will continue to campur tangan in my life and just give me the blessing and making things easier and easier. God always answers my prayer and I'm happy that He is listening to me.

I was doomed

                                                   Life is just about to have a cup of coffee

Getting on my nerves

          Just now working alone in the lab, enjoying the silence and doing my own thing, suddenly the lab assistant coming out of nowhere with that flaring eyes  and scold me for not getting any permission from him to use the lab. I'm sorry that I don't know he is in charge for the lab but he shouldn't scold me for no reason, instead figure me out how did I get into the lab and so on. I was ask permission form the other in charge person before him. So, I think it's okay for me to used the lab. But I don't know much. I just used the lab. However, when he said those word, it seems that he don't care, he just want his job to become more easier. I don't know how to describe him. Duh.....

Breaking the silence

Life ain't easy

       When somebody is silence, doesn't mean that somebody don't have anything to say, when that somebody don't like to talk, doesn't mean, that somebody will not talk. Silence sometime kills. If keep on silence and did not come forward and talk, other somebody could just talk for you and that won't be the voice from yourself, it's  something that people talk for themselves just to make sure they are not at fault. Sitting alone in this lab, while doing my thesis, making me feel that I am so alone and I think too many times about that little something. So, I on my lappy and started to write. I had to write it out to make me less thinking too much.

      Sometime, people could do anything just to put the blame on others just to make sure themselve are safe by giving false statement. SELFISH. I don't know what is the condition right now about the crime, I know I could be the one being suspected I could be the one being blame on, but, I got nothing to afraid of, One thing for sure is that this is my experience of being accuse for serious crime that I did not commit. What else could I say if all of them are telling the story that pointing at me and accusing me?? Only god knows how does it feel being betrayed, being accuse and being blame on. So, up to this point, I just had to continue to do my thesis.. Coming soon next post. Peace y'all.

Too many too much

        There is too many thing happens during my semester break of 4 months, and now is the final month of the sem break, and I am finally get to analyze my final year project, today, I start doing my work in the lab spl 1 at sst. Too many things need to settle before the lab will be closing on 16 of august, next wednesday. So rush. I am afraid everything will be out of control and upside down.Besides my thesis there are still many many things that I learn about life.

Shocking news?

         Unbelievable! What a coincidence, happen at the right timing? Is there anyone know something about this or trying to framing me on doing the crime? OMG, How could it be happening to me. The moment I want to quit the job, and there is something stolen from my company? Biggest suspect? Is it me? Jaw dropping for me, because I am innocent. One of the mistake that I was done was I'm not telling the People that I'm quiting the job and just doing my stuff by myself not telling her, making me becoming the main suspect for dissappearing from their sight for 2 days.