Poisoness of women

Jealousy

I’m just can’t get over it when it comes to jealousy because I was born to be jealous. But I some time got nothing to do but just hidden that kind of feeling insides me and just try to accept it. I’ve been doing that for almost 7 month but still, jealousy are still floating around in the air. I guess this is my biggest weakness. Why should I be jealous since we are human and all human are equal. So I think I should moving on now and I’m just couldn’t as I try. There is a lot of think that I have been done in my life that I’m just disappearing from the social group and try to move on. Get a life will you. I’m just trying to break this bad habit. I believe someday I will be able to break it. I must.

Little voice

Voice of my head

I’m the kind of people that hard to think of the best when  the problem of relationship is surface. It is hard  for me to just accepting other people who had once do mistake. Out of mercy, I just can not tell the real voice of my head. I’m just afraid I will hurt that person once I love before. Even though he was hurting me before. However, I have talk me voice of my head with my precious person and I realized that, I’m just can’t hurt that people. Somehow, I had a feeling that this relationship has no end and I’m just go with the flow as I’m waiting for him to do it for the second time as it was him who declares it.

Loss of appetite

Deep paper cut

             I am currently did't have the appetite to eat anything, I feels like disgusted t have something put through my throat  because, it is affecting my weight, I'm gaining too much weight to have eaten anything. It is very hard for me to accept my body image. I am so pressured when I saw the images of a sexy lady in the television making me so frustrated as I am working out but gaining weight. It's not the strength exercise that I had but still gaining weight because of my mentality about the medicine that I take. I believe It was the main cause of my weight gain.

My sources of depression

So confident!

Because of my skin problem, I have to take these pills for 8 months to make it go away. It have giving me a lot of side effects that makes me want to quite using it sometime. Last night, I was forget totally on taking this pill and i finally take it just now.

obsession

Flower diamond

New green era

This is my current obsession, to have a nail polish, i wish someday i will try out the medicure from the profession when i have make money of my own. It is worth to try it out. Up until now, I still did not have the good expertise on doing it on my own. My nail polishing skill is not perfect.

 Luckily, it may look great when you are not observing the nail too long. see it's look beautiful right.

Short stories: Seed of love

Cheat code for all gamer is feel

Revival of seed of love

What is love? Love can make a person happy but sometimes may cause a person gone crazy if failed to handled it when it comes to the end. What makes a relationship end? When there  incompatibility of the partner, and hardly understand of each other it is very hard for  this love to survive. seed of love are in dormant state when the both sides are holding back the truth of feelings towards each other. This may become a mishap and unfortunate if it is not let go and missing the opportunism of living the life to the fullest with their  true love.

What if the dormancy of the seed of love was broken and able to grow into a potential true love? Water is needed in order to break the dormancy seed of love, besides, air, oxygen, sun, nutrients.

1.       God love us, we love you

God is the foundation of love, we learn to love when we believe in His love. Through his teaching, there is a lot of things that we have learn. We have learn to love each other. God did not teach us to eliminate our enemy or hate them but to approach and share the love that he gave

2.       Giving second chance

Every one is worth given the second chance because no one is perfect. So, it is important to just let go the unpleasant memory and restart a new relationship. With the second chance, they will be a potential of increasing the depth understanding of the relationship and the reason of the mistake was happening. This is little gap that give people the chance to be a better  person.

The reality of reviving a wilting love is to give a second chance to restart a new relationship and understand the partner besides spending some time for some reflection of the past relationship. Honesty is crucial in reviving as it was an effort of earn  trust from the partner.

In  my own story, I’m happy to this point that I have discovered that I can give such an impression to people life. I can make people feel comfortable and be understandable to myself. I can be a place for someone to turn to and I can be the people that make people want to love. As I personally can’t see this kind of quality in myself. Without realizing it, my partner who tried to revive the seed of love was almost succeed as he was mentioning about the quality of personality in me that make him comfortable. Spending  time answering all the question that I kept in  my mind was the effort of him to earn my trust and convince me to make fresh start in our relation ship. He is really come forward to his confession of keeping her Milo picture in his laptop and talking about contacting her and so forth. But I still having my own confession to make and explaining the reason for all the thing that I have done just to escape from the social circle. Trying to tell my side of the story and make myself more comprehensible. As I was trying to know him better as well but merely through the chatting  time.

3.       Acknowledgement of family

When family know about the relationship, there is a little sense of security in it as it’s just shows that people are growing nearer to you. There is stand a chance of longer relationship success. They is no evaluation needed from the family. Exceptionally, it’s not confirming for the relationship to be ended with marriage.

4.       Comparison and analysis

With the previous experience, there is always comparison between the exes, and the feeling that someone available to make u feel was unanimously different whenever you are nearby, angry, or words that you hear without have to say it. As the analysis of the things that happen during the relationship was quite interesting and it may make people feel and eyes open when you realize something that you don’t think is express in your personality

5.       Spending time apart for a short period of time.

When there is short period of time apart, there is always a chance of feeling emptiness in it, when the emptiness is happening, there is someone missing in your life. This will make you confirm and feel that you can’t live without your partner.

6.       Inspiring

When you was inspired  by person, you feels that you are enthusiastic to talk with that person and feels that you are really needed that person’s word to make you enthusiastic.

7.       Sense of security

There is a sense of security that you feel whenever you are trying to give it to the person that you want to convince, it’s very important to just discuss about feeling and heart. Through this, there is always a sense of security as you are answering the question that get have been bugging you around.

8.       Laid back

There should be a laid back in the relationship to just not making the partner feels the  pressure. As it may be a little less of text message, or call.

9.       Love maturity

Love will mature when there is a time it was dormant, it’ always grow, but, beware of the cheater who have a big heart.

Doing my best

Love on air

                Bicycle is my recently discovered obsession as it is the alternative for travelling and enjoying the view of the outdoor at the same time and stay healthy, in shape as well. I challenge myself everyday to go beyond the comfort zone . As my riding skills was fortified, I am eager to ride farther than I ever had everyday. The most challenging route that I have taken is the road behind the Tamu which have three slope. I was so excited that I was able accept the challenge and complete it. Next, My second in shape device the Javelin.

                While Javelin is my long time favorite activities, I was first fell in love with it when I was 15 years old. At that time,I was picked by my school teachers to represent for this event and I wasn't doing well on it. Since that day, I was very determined to excel in sport and learning the technique from my father who is formerly national javelin thrower. Unfortunately, my determination and will was hold back with many kind of excuses, such as space, time, and willpower. Even without space, I used to train under my house with weight training and throwing at the back of my house, but now, I wasn't able to do it and this was because there is a lot of philipines family dwelling at the back of my house. I was not able to focused on the training as I have other priority which is study. 

               There was a time that I was totally giving up on it as I was not putting any effort on it. As times goes by, I was amazed that my long time abandoned dream was revive by the chances that came to knock on my door, without a doubt i immediately grab the chance and optimize the training for javelin by utilizing all that I have and my best throw is 29.50m currently Feb 2010. This number was  blown me away as I didn't aspecting such a gap of improvement, it seems that my effort was showing some result.