Yeay! Rowing, Varsity Boat Race~

vbr 2012

practical tuaran

Figure 1: change for chance

In 2010, I've stepping out of comfort zone in 2010.
I've thrown myself into the place that
I don't have anyone close to me.
I'm happy I did this,
This had made me understand myself better.

SPL sandakan

Figure 1: My first talk di depan org ramai

It's a nice place to go..
Even though for me, I feel like I'm not doing my best..
I still my old self.. and I'm looking forward to change that
little part in exchange to the behaviour of Jesus christ.
I'm weak.. but I'm strong when He is here with me.
By: JYOO

Love god. he is good, all the time

Shallom, as I was deeply in love with Him because He had save my live.
I believe that He is here with us all. Waiting for us to love him back.
He never failed us. But we always failed Him. If u had heart broken once,
It's nothing like what God felt as He was heart broken many time by people that turn over Him and did not love Him back. He is waiting for us to come to His door, knocking and followed Him.
His almighty god Love had makes some one change so much in such a great time and makes people change. Praise the Lord because He is good. I Love you Jesus Christ.
Please forgive my sins and guide me in anyway, blessed me with holy spirit and strengthen my  faith in You.
 I Love you so much Jesus.

By JYOO

Forget those bull****

I love Jesus Christ, He is the one who are able to save me from this mad world.
The rubbish for eternity. He made me forget about the world
And want to love Him more and more.
I'm fortunate to be born as Christian because I love Christian.
I love myself being Christian because
I was bound to the faith of Jesus Christ the almighty saviour.

Hard work. Don't sleep! Study! Pursue my dream in sport and academic!

For now I just go for the academic. Next semester
I have to continue to do my training
and do what ever it takes but once I was slip away my performance
I guess I didn't have to join this event anymore.
Just wait for the sabah open next year 2011 and aim
Higher than universities level. As I know its more worth it.

don't get dreaming, remind yourself

Go for gold
slap on my face ##, wake up josi, stop dreaming, the time is running faster than the lighting. if you keep on dreaming, it will become bad..

Drown

Go for gold
I hate myself for letting myself go..
everything that I plan to do was ruin.
I'm just don't have my own stand..

Judge me and go fuck yourself.

Damn life

Go for gold
too tired to carry my self..
I eat and sleep
but still feel the same old tired me..
what happen,
my body feels like 28 years old.
its stated at the meter that I'm 28 years old.
what should I do..
I need strenght from you GOD..
Help me to live my life.

Life is not good

Tiredness makes weary

Go for gold

I feel so tired of the sport, I need some rest, but there is too many things that is waiting for me to settle down before i have my great rest,

I hope I can pull this off, I really need some rest, I'm tired emotionally, I need to put my self a good rest, but I can't,

God, please guide me, give me calmness, give me strength and I want to stop all the crap that is bugging me around that makes me do things that is out of control.

I have my own goal to do,

Tired

Lol

Good result, good in sport and good in every little thing, god, help me, give me forgiveness for all that I've done that is not a godly behavior, I need some guidance from you.

Varsity boat race 2010

with Norain

hehe

with org putih university of cambridge rower

me..

People that happy to be alive

Go for gold gurl....

varsity boat race

Go for gold,

i feel happy because i have the opportunity to have this race because it was totally different from the game that i join before.

Busy dreaming

Hey you, take that bring it here

yes.. I'm busy, I'm loving it... To be honest my dream is to be a happy farmer who don't worry about money and busy life.  Just some normal and love the green environment without worry and happy with all the fruits and vegetables always donating it away for the needy. That's what I feel I want to do. In my dream.

The truth

Go for gold.. the time waster,  should leave her behind and not care what she desire as it have takes my time a lot and I've done lot of time wasting, regret but I wont do it again next time.

Feeding milk

Planting red ivy

Controller

Go for gold... have to control the money, that is my biggest weakness for these few semester, I am was tried investing money in my younger age but sadly, because of my parents need to used money as they was not good in money management was trap in the money summer and need to take out my money from my saving, to several point i should know is:

Just do it

1. know how credit card work
2. have budget,
3. invest in young age
4. time money: 1month spent 100 on food, 100 on daily used, 100 pleasured
5. money make money.

My Guru

My brotha

Hey you, bring your ass here, work work work.

Go for gold.... I can't sleep last night, but after a couple of god songs and some articles from the website, at last i manage to sleep, it's so hard for me if I got this imsonia because I'm tired but yet can not sleep, even I  try so hard to sleep, i still couldn't, maybe because of the condition that my skin feel irritated because of some elergy of food and hard to breath. maybe i should take some time for myself and relax for a while because it's very tired right now.

whaddaya want from me

My Secret Garden

Go for gold.. keep asking me what do i want, i'm not looking for you but you looking for me. the problem is not mine but you. you think, why should I think? everything is over now, I'm not having any feeling towards you anymore, if you got it, it's your bad, just eliminate the feeling and move on, I'm trying to move on for every thing that I did, don't you know that, just forget about my promises just like you blown away your promises at first that you make to me. Move on honey.

Motivation

Let's move.. Kill the weed.

Go for gold.. please don't give up, be strong, I believe I can do it, it's just simple, just do what you want to do and everything will happen for it's reason, hard work would be paid and you have nothing to worry, just be positive all the time and think less, must discipline self, review everything first thing in the morning and you would just reach your 3 main goal, keep focusing on your main goal, don't bother to think about things that you have nothing to do with, may god bless my hardwork, and I love you JESUS.

Tired

Hey.. Troll

Go for gold.. after class. the most attentive that i pay to the teacher even i din get enough sleep last nite, i borrow some of the book and i'm gonna start read them by today. This is the picture of me when I was so ugly and big. Believe it or not I have started my diet as vegetarian. Maybe its just that I'm getting myself used to the diet. Roger and Out.

Imsoniac

Please be at beside me

Go for gold.. omg, i'm insoniac last nite, so hard for me to fall asleep. I wonder what am I thinking to make me have this condition. oh god, please help me, i'm tired but my head wont sleep i need to sleep. i just hate it, when would I let go this hatred and move on with my own life. This hatred had been the main thing that trap my life. I have to learn how to let go and just move on. seems like i'm still learning about it.

Sony E. like Javeline

Just my passion

Run run run

Go for gold.. still working on breaking on my bad habit, jealousy, when is this gonna end, i just have to stop stalking, and everything would be fine. please, when is this gonna end, i'm hoping for the best for my self, i'm happy today i've just got back here and start training, i'm trying out the technique, seems like lack of practice, i'm just needing a lot of throwing to get the right motion, and make it in the right timing, it's all about timing, and it needs a very high body concious here. wish me luck 55m,

Josephine to Josephine

Josephine want to tell Josephine about...

Go for gold.. nothing to worry about, just live my live as i have to be and do the routine everyday like I should and I think everything should be okay. Just keep focusing on my goal and don't worry about things that you don't have control over just move on and do your best everyday.

Double checkmate

The uglyness of me

Lets get it on.

Go for gold.. I'm easily explode, I got this irritable mood swing that may affect my heart and soul. I wonder what I should do to stop this mood swing. The behaviour of that someone make me want to scream at people, that someone never exhibit a good behaviour for you to follow, and I trust no one in this world as she betrayed me so very often.

seriously

Cam Whoring has nothing to do with this post 

Go for gold..i'm so serious in achieving every little thing that i have plan for this semester. I hope nothing will be the obstacle for me and i will try to stay out of trouble as it may contribute to loss of concentration in my focus. God bless me.

Rebelliious freak

This my only

Go for gold.. i go for bicycle riding and take the different route, the chill of the wind that blow to my skin makes me want to ride more faster than ever. but with the busyness of the road makes me a little trembling because it's very unresponsible for some of the road users as if they are the owner of the road. so, i'm kinda frustrated when there is so many things that i want to do was forbidden from  my mother, i'm and adult but still treated like i'm 12 years old, i want to bring my by by by bicycle to Ums but cannot. everything can not makes me want to scream my voice out of  my throat.

love bohemian rhapsody

Got to see to believe

Go for gold... it's the coolest songs every. I'm dead lovin it, hopefully i can found other songs that can rocks my world just like bohemian rhapsody, but i'm sure nothing could compare to it. so, loving it.

I'm craving for something

Fat

Go for gold... i'm out of control, i didn't control myself, i have to control myself, it's killing me if i let myself go, i should have known what is the consequences of doing it. I have to let it under my control. I hope I can do it. There is environmental factor that makes me craved for it. There is four days to go for me to stay here, the unhealthy environmental for me. unhealthy for both health and mental. it's killing me to stay here.

Addiction

Believe am ugly

Go for gold.... I've got the addiction of viewing someone who is once my rival without her knowing it. someone told me my act are just cause by jealousy but someone said that I viewing her everyday just like I like her that makes me creeps out because that's means i'm abnormal. I don't want to be abnormal because it's not a good thing in my religion. so, I think I should keep on praying to the god and moving on. Now I got some other things that is much more important than to busy with other peoples.

Howt...

Go for gold.. keep on trying to melt me down? well, will not success if you just doing that,hopefully god will bless everyone and let them find their way to what is really important in this world rather than chasing after wind. If u chase after wind you would just waste my time and i don't want to waste anybody's time. because u let me grab wind of promise once back in the day before. now i let you taste the chase of the wind and with option. you can always take yourself away from me. I'm not making you stay anymore.

Ignorance

Piece no war

Whatever that comes to me that did not help me to get closer to my goal. Ignorance is gonna be my new best friend. Sorry to those that being ignored. I'm just being strict and competitive. Got some other things to focus on. If you want to me involve with me think million times because you might get hurt and i'm didn't care anything. Judge me if you want to, but who are you wanted to judge me since you are not perfect as well.

scribble of morning

I got no problem with you!

Contacting doesn't mean anything. so, I really wan to know what is the purpose of telling me all those things? Don't find me anymore. I'm sick and tired of all this crap. I will not have relationship to anyone in this sem. so sorry if i have make you feel misery. it's not me making you feel this way. blame no one but you dumping me first. If you need some one help, come to that person asking for help don't aspecting that person would take the intiative to come to you and help you honey. thing la bah.. you got brain. I have no reason to fail. Too much people have prove it can be done.

It's easy but...

Noodle hair

Actually driving is easy just like drinking water but when there is some people directing you what to do while u know what you should do was so damn confusing, especially emotionally unstable was involve in this situation may lead to unwanted condition to occurred in certain time. Last time i'm almost scratching some people car because i never have a chance to concentrate on what I want to do in the first place. while being scolded is very annoying while you are doing just almost no mistake. What do you aspect to be the perfect driver while you are not.

I'm heading to my goal

Grade target is 3.5 (failed)
My goal is weight goal 55 kg (accomplish)
My distant goal is 55 as well (failed)

My new self: I'm not going to have relationship for this semester, i'm saving some money, i'm not gonna waste my time on unrelated things to me, i'm going to be very punctual, i'm gonna organized all myself, i'm going to balance up all the things that i want to do, i'm going to make myself get closer to the lecturer up close and personal especially my p.a and i'm going to really competing with my peers for achieving the outstanding grade.

The virgins myvi... my brotha car

I believe if I keep on focusing myself on it, I'm must achieve my goal. I have two competition to compete for, the sukmab and sabah open. I'm really aim for the sabah open tournament,  I'm not going to step myself back anymore, i'm must climb all the mountain that on my way. I must do this.

is it real

I'm confuse, i'm expecting for the next person. not same with myself for sure. But i'm expecting a new love. but i'm just unready yet.i'm sure of my own interested of course even i have said it myself for a few time but it's just for gag. I'm not gonna do it. it's not fun at all.

I'm sorry baby

Clause 1#
once you have broken a mirror,
you can still see the crack in the reflection by lady gaga.
even you try to get back together,
it won't be the same anymore,
just before he broke your heart for the second time,
You better get confronted and
just retreat yourself before it's getting worst,
it's just not that easy for someone to just take you back
when he left you first.

Clause2#
he hurts you and everything got destroy
because he is taking you for granted.
He thinks that you will wait for him just as i promised him,
but i guess you just doing what he did to you,
You didn't keep your promise because you have realise
you can't lie to your self
as it's you who have to carried the weight on your shoulder.
And you said
'I'm sorry baby.I'm learning.'

Lyrics by: JayDee
                  (JD)

Awful day

Joining Unduk ngadau

I just keep on meet up with a lot of dogs along the way i'm cycling. So awful, I wish that the dog will go away. But once I recall the numerology have warn me that something will happen today makes me scared, so i keep on avoiding any dogs.because it's give me bad feeling.

The end of it

Finally, I have let the voice of my head to just let it go. As it seems it's like the way he want it. So be it, it's like the roller coaster, what comes around goes around. As I have saw the real person behind those mask. That feeling was died since the day I determined not to contact him anymore. So, he should have accepting my decision easily as he was the one who wish this to be like this in the first place. Besides, I got other more important goal to achieve.

working life

Pg working~

LOL

I'm so wondered why should i call, it's seems that i'm the one that really want to be with him.kinda selfish but what can i say, i'm a bad situation handler. It's just wasn't my thing. ok fine. maybe i'm waiting for the right time to let go. i'm going to become the dove where i'm near around you but hard to get whenever you want to. so watch out you guys, if you are trying to get anything, just don't embarassed yourself for so desperate.I'm not gonna be the same anymore honey..

Little voice

Voice of my head

I’m the kind of people that hard to think of the best when  the problem of relationship is surface. It is hard  for me to just accepting other people who had once do mistake. Out of mercy, I just can not tell the real voice of my head. I’m just afraid I will hurt that person once I love before. Even though he was hurting me before. However, I have talk me voice of my head with my precious person and I realized that, I’m just can’t hurt that people. Somehow, I had a feeling that this relationship has no end and I’m just go with the flow as I’m waiting for him to do it for the second time as it was him who declares it.

Loss of appetite

Deep paper cut

             I am currently did't have the appetite to eat anything, I feels like disgusted t have something put through my throat  because, it is affecting my weight, I'm gaining too much weight to have eaten anything. It is very hard for me to accept my body image. I am so pressured when I saw the images of a sexy lady in the television making me so frustrated as I am working out but gaining weight. It's not the strength exercise that I had but still gaining weight because of my mentality about the medicine that I take. I believe It was the main cause of my weight gain.

My sources of depression

So confident!

Because of my skin problem, I have to take these pills for 8 months to make it go away. It have giving me a lot of side effects that makes me want to quite using it sometime. Last night, I was forget totally on taking this pill and i finally take it just now.

obsession

Flower diamond

New green era

This is my current obsession, to have a nail polish, i wish someday i will try out the medicure from the profession when i have make money of my own. It is worth to try it out. Up until now, I still did not have the good expertise on doing it on my own. My nail polishing skill is not perfect.

 Luckily, it may look great when you are not observing the nail too long. see it's look beautiful right.

Short stories: Seed of love

Cheat code for all gamer is feel

Revival of seed of love

What is love? Love can make a person happy but sometimes may cause a person gone crazy if failed to handled it when it comes to the end. What makes a relationship end? When there  incompatibility of the partner, and hardly understand of each other it is very hard for  this love to survive. seed of love are in dormant state when the both sides are holding back the truth of feelings towards each other. This may become a mishap and unfortunate if it is not let go and missing the opportunism of living the life to the fullest with their  true love.

What if the dormancy of the seed of love was broken and able to grow into a potential true love? Water is needed in order to break the dormancy seed of love, besides, air, oxygen, sun, nutrients.

1.       God love us, we love you

God is the foundation of love, we learn to love when we believe in His love. Through his teaching, there is a lot of things that we have learn. We have learn to love each other. God did not teach us to eliminate our enemy or hate them but to approach and share the love that he gave

2.       Giving second chance

Every one is worth given the second chance because no one is perfect. So, it is important to just let go the unpleasant memory and restart a new relationship. With the second chance, they will be a potential of increasing the depth understanding of the relationship and the reason of the mistake was happening. This is little gap that give people the chance to be a better  person.

The reality of reviving a wilting love is to give a second chance to restart a new relationship and understand the partner besides spending some time for some reflection of the past relationship. Honesty is crucial in reviving as it was an effort of earn  trust from the partner.

In  my own story, I’m happy to this point that I have discovered that I can give such an impression to people life. I can make people feel comfortable and be understandable to myself. I can be a place for someone to turn to and I can be the people that make people want to love. As I personally can’t see this kind of quality in myself. Without realizing it, my partner who tried to revive the seed of love was almost succeed as he was mentioning about the quality of personality in me that make him comfortable. Spending  time answering all the question that I kept in  my mind was the effort of him to earn my trust and convince me to make fresh start in our relation ship. He is really come forward to his confession of keeping her Milo picture in his laptop and talking about contacting her and so forth. But I still having my own confession to make and explaining the reason for all the thing that I have done just to escape from the social circle. Trying to tell my side of the story and make myself more comprehensible. As I was trying to know him better as well but merely through the chatting  time.

3.       Acknowledgement of family

When family know about the relationship, there is a little sense of security in it as it’s just shows that people are growing nearer to you. There is stand a chance of longer relationship success. They is no evaluation needed from the family. Exceptionally, it’s not confirming for the relationship to be ended with marriage.

4.       Comparison and analysis

With the previous experience, there is always comparison between the exes, and the feeling that someone available to make u feel was unanimously different whenever you are nearby, angry, or words that you hear without have to say it. As the analysis of the things that happen during the relationship was quite interesting and it may make people feel and eyes open when you realize something that you don’t think is express in your personality

5.       Spending time apart for a short period of time.

When there is short period of time apart, there is always a chance of feeling emptiness in it, when the emptiness is happening, there is someone missing in your life. This will make you confirm and feel that you can’t live without your partner.

6.       Inspiring

When you was inspired  by person, you feels that you are enthusiastic to talk with that person and feels that you are really needed that person’s word to make you enthusiastic.

7.       Sense of security

There is a sense of security that you feel whenever you are trying to give it to the person that you want to convince, it’s very important to just discuss about feeling and heart. Through this, there is always a sense of security as you are answering the question that get have been bugging you around.

8.       Laid back

There should be a laid back in the relationship to just not making the partner feels the  pressure. As it may be a little less of text message, or call.

9.       Love maturity

Love will mature when there is a time it was dormant, it’ always grow, but, beware of the cheater who have a big heart.

Doing my best

Love on air

                Bicycle is my recently discovered obsession as it is the alternative for travelling and enjoying the view of the outdoor at the same time and stay healthy, in shape as well. I challenge myself everyday to go beyond the comfort zone . As my riding skills was fortified, I am eager to ride farther than I ever had everyday. The most challenging route that I have taken is the road behind the Tamu which have three slope. I was so excited that I was able accept the challenge and complete it. Next, My second in shape device the Javelin.

                While Javelin is my long time favorite activities, I was first fell in love with it when I was 15 years old. At that time,I was picked by my school teachers to represent for this event and I wasn't doing well on it. Since that day, I was very determined to excel in sport and learning the technique from my father who is formerly national javelin thrower. Unfortunately, my determination and will was hold back with many kind of excuses, such as space, time, and willpower. Even without space, I used to train under my house with weight training and throwing at the back of my house, but now, I wasn't able to do it and this was because there is a lot of philipines family dwelling at the back of my house. I was not able to focused on the training as I have other priority which is study. 

               There was a time that I was totally giving up on it as I was not putting any effort on it. As times goes by, I was amazed that my long time abandoned dream was revive by the chances that came to knock on my door, without a doubt i immediately grab the chance and optimize the training for javelin by utilizing all that I have and my best throw is 29.50m currently Feb 2010. This number was  blown me away as I didn't aspecting such a gap of improvement, it seems that my effort was showing some result.

Expore new world

Halo halo

                  When I woke up in the morning, I've my breakfast and I started to browse the internet for some useful articles which may help me develope and discover myself. Honestly, there are a lot of useful articles that I'm able to click on while I search through the websites. This web literally have become my teachers of life, because I have learn a lot from here. As I search through the internet, I have browse the Pop Crunch for the sexiest women in sport, and now I know that I can be literally sexy eventhough I am participating in sport. There she is the Paraguayan World class thrower Leryn franco, and still in the sexy curve.

Besides that, I have click on the 7 ways of good writing, heres the tips. hehe~

          Readable, focused, develops gracefully in the means of putting on evidence to support the argument and not letting any gaps reasoning to slip in the besides include the unsupported assumptions or missing information, keep the writing floss, the writing suppose to be concrete and not easily questioned, the article must be suited to the reader, and when writing the article, be passionate to what you want to pointed out. I found that this is very useful tips for me in writing my paper and assignment.