This time make it the fourth time

I had experienced breakup for a few times, but this is the most hurtful, sinful, and unforgetable. This is one of the painful breakup I ever had, and I will never turn my head on it anymore. From now on, what's on my mind is that, I got nothing to do with that man anymore. I hurt myself the most. Laugh as loud as you can on my sorrow. Tell to world what you know about me, I'll be very thankful for your action. Because as long as you are happy with what you did, then you deserve to be happy. I feel hurt so bad this time, it bleed so bad. I glad, I had this relationship. I'm happy I get to know him.

Cowgirl on the ride~ Part 9

Let the club handle her

              The heavy rain pouring on Stelensia plants making the rooftop got everything spoiled . Everything was spoil. Why is all this happening,  She can't take it anymore. she just continued to walk her journey of life. She can't think anymore her head is not spinning. God please show her the U turn. Stelensia need guidance to continue her life here on earth. What is that earthy things that makes her so selfish and self centered. Everybody got this little piece in themself. God show  the right way, take the sin away, she had committed the biggest sins in her life. Everything was spoiled. everything was ruin. Nothing left for her in this world. God, talk to her, tell her, Let her listen to Your sweet voice. She need You to tell her everything. She is dying right now. Her soul is dying.

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