My convocation

This is the situation that every single human in this world will experience, if it is not controlled or let go, then, it would be the worst case scenario to have a disease of crazy. and there is no cure for it and the medicine have to be taken for as long as your lifespan to stabilize the mind and emotion. It's very important to understand this kind of disease because it may happen to you or your family member as well.

My convocation

The symptom that i have experience is that let my anger go on my love one, not satisfied with it and cursing the mistake that have been taken, raising voice pitch all of the sudden while talking, not shy, spending time alone and silence. 

Gossips is bullshit

Gossips is bullshit

        No one know how it feels to be me right now in this world, everything happens not as I wanted, but all I can do is to go with the flow and wait for the matter to settling down by it's own, because the least that I can do is to let the rumors flowing in the air, It's okay. I just feel that my life is getting too complicated. I just can't get a hold on to myself because I'm weak. I can't stand alone here because I'm easily fall. I can't do all this because there is too  much to worry about.

Noobie

Brunei for Borneo game

Weird fashion

Heading to uptown buy some groceries dear blog. . housewife do's. taking out trash. . . so boring when it comes to doing housechores. I hate being housewife. lol. muahaha

24th

            This was the fourth failure of my trial, should I say its not the right one or its just me that made all this false decision. I just don't know whats coming up next, it seems that, everything that I had hope was not happening as it was predicted. I feel like giving up everything. I didn't found any purpose in life. My head slowly transforming into a pessimistic person. As things had happen that not building me up but tearing me down as I learned. I just can't stand on my own feet alone. I can't walk this journey all by myself. After all the thing that happen, I just can't believe in anyone anymore. It's a crap to put my trust on people. Not even myself. I can't clinging on my own principle.

      

  Still, what are the solutions for this matter? Even there was a solution, the problem still popping up suddenly. Feeling down is something that I had done for almost in my whole life. I have no idea how to straighten up, and put my chin up high above the water. Let God be the one to found the solution to all this question of my life. 

24th birthday celebrate after work

Keep that in mind that HE is with us every second when we busy, griefing on earthy matter, knock that head, open that eyes, turn yourself to HIM NOW!!!

By     JYOO

My practical Tuaran DOA

Isi polybeg guna dgn pakaian formal.. bangang betul!

Tinggu tu pokok durian berkawin: bahagia

Menjual buah mangga chokanan di tuaran. wow

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Buat tut buah ciku.. fantastic

Kasi pakai baju sama polybeg mangga cokanan

Sa di siring paling ujung baju ijau

Berdug dug di jiwa tunggu giliran bercakap depan beliau beliau

Masuk hutan di kg tuk ambil cantasan seedless lemon

         The goal setting making me have something to think of everyday, I have to learn to write well. In order to do that, I've browse lots of web about writing paper, and learn from it. There is never too late for someone to learn even though they are at the age of 50. Always sets something to achieve that makes you feels it's impossible to achieve but at the same time not giving up on it as it is very thrilling when the goal was successfully achieved. I believe I can do this even though it's so unrealistic. 

        What's fuel me up is that when I talk about it to people, they think it is unachieved as is there is a limit in my capabilities. So, this has make me really determine to achieved it and I just don't care for any other distracting situation than achieving my goal. In order to  achieve my goal, I have to plan how to do it, It's start from how to organized well and break this little goal to a lot of little task that allows the progression of the journey of reaching to my goal. 

The are several short term goal I want achieve:

1.Have score improved my grade ( target 3.5 gpa) 

2. goal weight 55 kg currently 65 kg in (3 month)

3. javelin throw distant, 55m ( currently targert for 45m)

4. Read 3 self enrichment book.

5. Sketch 3 picture

Having a plan is crucial in achieving goal.

'Thrive for success'

Hujan jga akhirnya

Setelah sekian lama ku rasa ups and down dlm sebulan yang lalu musim paska. byk salib2 kecil yang sa harus pikul. tp lepas minggu paska ini tamat. sa terasa semua beban2 salib kecil yang terpaksa sa pikul tu kan hilang semua ni. memang kali ini la sa betul2 menghayati kebangkitan yesus kristus tu. sa pecaya betul2 dengan Dia suda ni. di saat2 saya suda abis betri. mo putus asa dan kestressan dan hampir gila dengan masalah yang tidak conclusion. Thank you sangat2 kepada mereka yang stick dengan saya yang bantu saya waktu saya dlm masalah. tq sangat2 lord jesus christ.. Surut sda banjir air bah, tamat suda musim kemarau. hujan suda. pelangi suda muncul. Perkara ini sangat2 buat saya bertindak lebih matang lagi. Bisuk pigi belajar buat hasilan kacang soya di unit latihan tamparuli. pegi timba ilmu lagi. kemarin pula ada supervisor datang. dia pun concern la juga kenapa tiba2 sa minta pindah. sa pun menceritakan hal sebenar. dia kata anda harus jaga diri, dlm working life memang begini, kita yang perlu alert, dan dia kata it's a good move ko pinda ke sini. means. am doing the right thing to fix my mistake. walaupun awalannya semua punca org kata dari saya sendiri, but I had done something to avoid even worst consequences kan. thats right. tq everybody biar yang mencaci, mengumpat, mengasih ketawa atau yang mengfitnah2, sebab you all make me stronger than yesterday. Tq everybody. Kamu adalah pendorong saya menjadi lebih berani lagi. May god bless you all.

Trauma: Stelensia imsoniac nightmare

Stelensia was in the dilemma on the night she was outstation from the day she was at Kota belud. She was alone in the room trying to have a peaceful moment with her favourite novel book. She received message from one of the boss asking her wherebout. Finally, he was persuade her to get into her room and she was shocked with the condition when she had the intuition that she was in trouble that night. She just want to stay out of trouble and she was blank at the moment trying to escape from the room was not the wise choice in her thought. All she think about is to stay up all nite and be cautious to that man. At the moment, she had a old stranger in her room with double of her age trying to get into her pants. She was so anxious and can’t sit tight. All she did was to look calm and survive that night. She make it look as friendly as possible and talk to him all night long. She had told him everything, about her  feelings and he was suppose to get the idea of she was not comfortable with him in the room.  All night long was a hell to her. This man had push off the limits. Stelensia limits is high, and this man had push her button and she can’t take it anymore. In three weeks, she had endure all this verbally sexually harrassment and finally he is getting physical and she knew she is no longer safe doing her internship in the department of extension in Tuaran. Whatever it is. She will fight her right and he had to bear the consequences of his action. Goodbye Mr. boss.

Lesson learned: put your limit low so people won't think you will not angry easily.. self value important don't waste time on the wrong one.