Mother of two, Working mom

My life was totally different when it comes to changing my status into working mom with two child daughter. Sometimes every little things that i had to made up too really makes me feel so tired. Its the second type of tired, which will never be feeling good again with all the good rest. 

The tiredness that I meant here is tired of being at here, with all this. What would I do? Surely I would just self seek calmness by doing some handicraft. Reading, looking for inspirator gurus. and sometimes i seek answers from god, looking for the books fills with word of wisdom from the bible with every question in life. 

Its really like a roller coaster, to just juggling the feelings and thoughts at the same times I keep on talking to myself that i may have this any kind of depression or disorder. Just that I never talk to any expert. Maybe Im not in the worst stage because I always know how to empty the bottling up stress in my head, keep on pressing the reset button in my head and looking for ways to feel my self a little more better. 

Im just tired, and need a rest. I have to change my habit from being so angry at a little dirt that i just clean up on the floor, into a person to let it just being dirty for a while, I'll come back later, when i got enough rest. So that I wont feel so pressured to do all the chores non stop. just do it when u feel u want to be. I would rather being called lazy rather than feeling depressed on keeping the perfect clean and tidy home. as the whole energy was drain during working hour, sometimes works need to be done at home, it really occupied a big part of my times during at home..

P.S: Be calm, Be queen of Home, and be doing it when you feel you want too. Peace no war.